So my life has been pretty dull lately and I have been slipping away into what some may call a sad faze or depression. It is as though I am in a cloud of fog like everything is not quite clear. I have bigger life goals and visual dreams of what I hope it will become, but no 'in the moment' drive to plunge forward. i am constantly waiting for the right time to come to so something or to start a project to to simply finish one through. I am the type of person who will be all in to a project like it will consume me when i'm on a roll or eager to persist but the moment I can feel it slipping away, I switch off to a dullness until another rush and wave of excitement for a sense of focus. I always feel like the next big moment is jus around the corner like I'm about to start a company that just takes off or has been my underlying passion just waiting to pop through. But It all fades and life moves on without me. I am still and yet stressed, Happy and yet somehow still sad.
It all started with the travel blues which soon become will just the blues... I was and still and totally consumed by a rut in my life, a hump that I just can seem to get over. but todays the day. i can feel it, Im going t start something new. A new way of living, living for today and today only not the future and not dwelling on the past. .. Yup its not going to be easy I know that...
But Im going to try. Its the TRYING that is going to count It is the the thought and then the perseverance of the action, of knowing that this will in some way change my life and hopefully for the better.
So day one it is.
I have so far completed two of my daily tasks I have set out for myself. 1. Get out of bed before 10 am and 2. Do at least 10 minutes of exercise every day. Today it was playing tennis with my dad for 30 minutes before he left for work.
okay... I can do this, its going to happen.... And your coming with me.
Hiya, my name is Kirsty I was born in South Africa and grew up in New Zealand. I love travelling and seeing new things, I consider myself to be someone who has a good vibe about people. I am so interested in the way people act and do things, One of my favourite things to do in a new city is sit in a cute little local cafe and chitchat to the locals around me and people watch those going by. I love bunnies, baking, willow trees and a good summers day!